Ben Dearman

Maybe…

May 22nd, 2008 Posted by bendearman | Uncategorized |

I have been in a funk. A really crappy funk. Sometimes things happen or you’re put in situations where you may not be happy or you may face adversity. Everyone goes through it. Not everyone knows exactly how to cope with it. I am (or I guess was) a person who, up to 2 years ago, was very hard to upset, driven, almost perpetually happy, full of “peanut butter” (ask and you shall receive), had a better outlook on life, and a whole bunch of other positive things. I am not that person now. That changes today. I am in a situation where I am not happy. And like a little winy bitch who has nothing better to do with their life than complain and point the finger at everyone else for the root of their problems, I took it out on people who didn’t deserve it. But most importantly I let it change who I was as a person. The only one who can change who you are is yourself. When people lose faith or lose the will then they change. I have that faith…but I lost my will…but thank the little 8.6 lb tiny baby Jesus I found the will again.

I am the first person to point out to someone who is bitching about how crappy their situation is, that if they aren’t doing anything to make the situation better, then they have accepted what and where they are in life…and really they should shut up because all that wasted energy can be funneled into finding a way to help themselves. It’s time I listened to my own advice. No more bitching, no more being a different person. I want…screw that, I will be the old me. Really, what do I have to be upset about? I have one of the best jobs in the world! I get paid to laugh, have a good time and yell at people. I mean…people pay me to torture them. Yeah I know, it’s exercise, but you can define torture as so many different ways, good and bad. I have a good paying job, great friends, my health, awesome clients, my family and an amazing girl friend. People come to me to help change their lives. That is some deep shit right there. Some times (well, ok a a lot more then sometimes) we get caught up in the money aspect of life. Yes, we all have to live and eat, but I believe if you are good at something that you have an obligation to “pay it forward and backward”. I am a good trainer (some might say great, or amazing or even the best…that’s their opinion…and I encourage that opinion full heartedly) and I’ve forgot my obligation. You may not be able to pay the money I ask, but if you come to me for help, I will find a way to make it happen. No more being upset or in a funk…after all…

What do I have to be upset about?

I will be me.

May 22nd, 2008 Posted by bendearman | Uncategorized |